Paratrooper diary

Nothing can be sooooooo terrified like jumping off the fifth-floor tall building, god, damn, it was my first time that i was so scared by that height. I feared that i would die by that action, and I couldn't overcome this fear because it was my human nature. It was a big challenge to me, how to deal with that height fear, i really had no idea. I jumped off that tall building twice on Friday, 2/3. It was very unforgettable memory. I closed my eyes every time when i jumped off. Actually, i was not so brave person like i expected before, and now it proved.Yes, i maight not conquer this fear but i still need to jump, to improve it , to finish it since i had chosen this troop.

The film, GTO, i had finished watching it at the beginning of this year, gave me a courage. Onizuka teacher had ever played a death game with his student, and finally he won it dramatically. I didn't know how he made that, but whenever i played his song, poison, i became braver than usual. Maybe i could use this song to help me a little bit. Also, i would have more courage whenever i thought of this film, GTO. And, it's one reason why i like GTO so much.

To be a paratrooper is not easy at all, and i felt it till i finished my twice jumping training. Hahaha, what should i say? I clearly knew i couldn't conquer my fear, but at least i had courage to jump. Besides, i believed i could improve it step by step, and i would try more and would have less fear about it. Gogogo! frankie!